despite not being any sort of content creator, i think this december 17th thing, and the mass exodus i’m watching happen before my very eyes, is as good a reason as any to begin to wean myself off of tumblr, which is something i’ve been thinking about doing for some time. i’ve been on here nearly seven years and they were weird and bad and good years, all at once, but i’m 23 years old and getting ready to apply to medical school and i need to start using my time for essays and emails and researching places to apply, not for this. most of my irl friends bailed out of here long ago, so i may as well be next in line.
i’ll keep posting regularly through the 17th, then reblog this post one more time, and then go mostly quiet, except for continuing to answer any asks i get and maybe the occasional text post if i don’t know where to put my thoughts or feelings. maybe my willpower will be weak as hell and i’ll be back on here in a month or three, maybe not. either way there’s a good chance i’ll purge this blog entirely once i start applying to schools next june (can never be too careful).
a few things as i get ready to leave, for now anyway:
you can find me on snapchat at nakannalee. if you want another way to get in touch, especially if we’re mutuals, shoot me an ask. i have a twitter and a discord and, though i’ve never been as active on either of those as on here, that may change going forward. i also have several long-running snap streaks going and i’m happy to add you to that list.
check out the recipes link in the sidebar - i have an awful lot of restaurant recommendations on there, especially if you happen to find yourself in boston or central nc. i’ve enjoyed curating that list so please do take advantage of it.
please don’t rely on the messaging system after 12/17 if you want to reach me. send me an ask instead, or use an irl method of communication.
i’ve been through a lot with y’all, whether for the past seven years or only the past several months. some of you have seen me go from my cringiest to my current quasi-adult state and you still stuck with me the whole time, which is quite frankly impressive as all hell. some of you got me involved in things that have become crucially important to my current life, or helped make me into who i am today. i’ve never in all my days been a popular blog and i don’t imagine i’ll start now. i’ve never been even remotely coherent on this bizarre hellscape of a site, but it’s still been a big part of my life and my attempts to figure out what on earth it’s all about. i’ll miss it, and you, all 378 of you.
thanks for reading and good luck out there.
-e
alright y’all, this is it for real. if you’re seeing this post, i’ve long since gone to bed on 12/16, and i won’t be logging back on in the morning. if you don’t know how to reach me in real life and you want to, send me an ask, not a message. thanks again for hanging out on this wild ride with me for nearly seven entire years
the one problem i have with people my age and younger is that a lot of us do not have hands on hobbies. like i have spoken to so many people my age who go to work, go to school and then fuck around on their phone/computer for hours and then ???????? like no wonder ur depressed and have low confidence in urself. u need to get ur hands on something, feed those dopamine receptors! learn how to play guitar, garden, scrapbook, fucking make model trains. i don’t give a shit, MAKE SOMETHING!!
it feels better than drugs when i finish making a thing—and then show it off or gift it.
and then so people my age say to me ‘well—i can’t draw/paint/knit/etc. like you can. my stuff would be terrible.’ yeah, well duh—a part of developing skill is sucking at something and then practicing it over and over and over again until you suck less. u’ll have a hard time feeling lonely or bored when you can’t stop thinking abt a technique you want to try or something you want to make for someone else. making things has SAVED MY LIFE. it gave me a reason to keep living day after day when i wanted to die.
making things have improved my generational relationships (when i worked for the newspaper i would talk to customers abt jamming recipes or cross-stitch, one of my grandmas always gives me pattern books and tell me abt when she knitted things for mom, my other grandma is giving me a wedding quilt that HER grandma gave her 50 years ago because she knows i will appreciate it). it also got me likeminded friends who also make things.
take a ceramics class! pick up water colors, bake cakes! learn to work on cars! make soap. DO SOMETHING THAT DOESN’T INVOLVE STARING AT A SCREEN.
i’m winding down on here - couple more posts in the queue, then goodbye announcement post one more time, but i’m about to go to bed now cause i gotta get up early tomorrow. sleep well y’all
i just remembered over the summer when i was being a movie extra we were shooting at a house in the middle of fucking nowhere outside of hillsborough late one night, and there was a shot where a bunch of us had to sprint across a field, and then we would all just chill in the field while they decided if they were gonna do another take or not. anyway at one point i looked up and realized i could see the milky way, and made an idle comment to that effect, and some of the crew overheard me and started telling their colleagues and soon there were a bunch of cameramen and sound guys out in the field marveling at the stars. it kind of took me by surprise until i remembered this crew was based in nyc and there was a decent chance they hadn’t seen the milky way ever in their lives. i had some feelings about it
lorde tweeting this snippet of a conversation between greta gerwig and florence welch is probably one of the most overwhelming things that happened to me in 2018
Cool there’s been asbestos in Johnson & Johnson baby powder this whole time and they have been aware of it for decades and done nothing
@laeffy yeah you uh. Need to stop doing that immediately and maybe go to the doctor to make sure you don’t have mesothelioma
this is so fucking sick
FYI, this applies to talc & talc-based powders / body products in general— J&J knew about this for decades because talc & asbestos occur together naturally (the minerals literally grow together in nature, have similar compositions, and are / were mined together), and they’re difficult to cleanly filter out from each other.
It’s old knowledge that, unless you’re involved in mining, mineralogy, or occupational health & safety, has been deliberately buried from both the public’s and regulators’ knowledge.
CNBC’s article + their writeup on the Reuters report revealing J&J’s cover-ups go into more detail on their corporate liability and the impact of J&J’s products specifically…
…But I cannot overstate that people’s best option right now is to look for products in general that do not contain talc at all, regardless of the manufacturer, and to be vigilant in seeking appropriate healthcare (and/or legal action if required) if symptoms arise.
This goes for body use (diaper powder, chafing powder— this is where the cases of ovarian cancer are coming from), for any use where powder may be inhaled (hair, face), or will have prolonged exposure to mucus membranes (eye makeup, bath bombs, etc.).
J&J are not the only ones who have covered this data up, and companies that aren’t sued will absolutely continue to do so. Be safe & be vigilant.
